I don’t know if I should be blogging this, but at the same time I know that I should. I’m going to Hume Lake in four days, and I wanted to let my followers know a little bit of my life before I’m headed off to another life-chain experience. But first, for those of you who don’t know, Hume Lake is a legendary Christian camp in Hume, California. (Want more information? Www.humelake.org)
Anyways, these past months have been inexplicably rough on my spiritually. I basically gave up on Jesus and everything that he could offer me. I just couldn’t/didn’t want to do it anymore. So I walked away from the better life. As soon as I turned my back I made some of the biggest mistakes of my life. I regret them completely. But the same time I couldn’t bring myself to kneel at the feet of Jesus. My heart was becoming so hardened that I couldn’t. I don’t want to give up that momentary pleasure that sin would give me for a lifetime of incredible joy. But this past week before I embark on a new journey has been an emotional roller coaster. suddenly I crave Jesus more and more, even though I haven’t talked to him in months. Now I am sorry for my mistakes, when before I was seemingly proud of them. Now, I just want to stand with arms high and heart abandoned. This is my heart going into Hume Lake and I cannot wait to share with you the new and virgin heart that is reborn out of it.
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Finally being able to see the world through the eyes of the One who saved you. That, I truly believe, is a gift. I can look around each corner, through every window, into the eyes of a stranger, and see the brokenness within. I praise you lord for letting me see with your eyes!
Ask Jesus to lend you his eyes, his heart, his mind. Pray for this. There are so many benefits to this prayer. I’ve noticed that I’ve become a walking prayer. I spend many moments with God, asking him to heal the hurt and sew the pain. And also you start to learn new ways to evangelize to the world. You will understand how to do it in a way that will specifically connect with certain people. And from there lives begin to change. You begin to see what the lord saw in you in the times where you couldn’t see anything in yourself. That, I am grateful for. You understand beauty in a whole new light. You can appreciate anger in all of its misunderstanding. You can wipe away every tear with just the right amount of comfort. I tell you, brothers and sisters, this is indeed a prayer to meditate on.
How many of you have been in a situation where you want to tell someone about Jesus, about love and salvation, but don’t have the words. Perhaps your friend is suffering from something that you are trying to understand and you want to offer them the comfort of Jesus and tell them why he is perfect for their situation; but unfortunately you don’t know how. I tell you, meditate on this! On top of that, it is most important to read your Bible.
Just a praise, some thoughts, some love.
Xoxo, God bless.
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Questions about the Father.
There were a lot of things running through my mind tonight during Bible study. My emotions and confusion towards God feel so jumbled and tangled that I don’t know if it’s possible to separate them all. I learned some new things about our Heavenly Father that have been weighing on my heart and mind.
A girl in the study had said that once you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior you are forgiven of all of those sins foreven; you have a clean slate, I guess you could say. This I understand! I think this is one of the first things that we learn about God before we get saved. But the thing that I am struggling with is this: my friend had said that when you are forgiven of those sins, you are forgiven forever, and no longer have to repent for those types of sins. Say you were a liar, but you accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior. When you recieve your “clean slate” you no longer have to repent for the general sin of lying. Not so much your previous lies, but the act all in itself. So if you lie again while you are walking with Jesus, you just pray for strength to not do it again because God has already forgiven you and there would be no point in saying no. This perplexed me because this is not the God that I have come to known. I think about it this way: a sin is a sin, is a sin, is a sin! It’s not like we can sin and then never ask for forgiveness or repent on it. I’m just so confused. I feel like that would defeat having a close and intimate relationship with Jesus! There would be no point to continue to twalk int he faith and follow Jesus if you were forgiven for all of your “general sins” and never had to repent for them again, you know? You wo uld be seemingly perfect. But, alas, we are not a perfect people. We are all sinners! Another one of my friends said that you just have to pray about those sins, as the Lord to help you, not necessarily repent for them. I hope this is making sense! I would really like some clarification on the subject.
If anyone can offer any clear answers, they would very much be appreciated.
He is Jealous for Me.
Loves like a hurricane,
I am a tree.
Bending beneath the weight and the wind of his Mercy.
Oh, how he loves us so.
Oh, how he loves us.
How he loves us, oh.
He loves me so much that he died for me. Thousands of years before my ancestors were born, he died for me. He died for you. Christ died for Everyone.
Yes, because God keeps coming back for you.
God is persistent. He doesn’t just wait around for you to come back to him. He keeps pursuing you. He loves you passionately and goes to great lengths to help you see your situation with clarity and wisdom: Without him, you’re in trouble. You need the…
He Rose and Conquered the Grave!
Savior, he can move the mountains!
Our God is mighty to save, he is mighty to save!
Forever, author of salvation! He rose and conquered the grave! Jesus conquered the grave!!
A beautiful day it is! Praise Jesus for being a wonderful savior! He has proved himself as the son of God! He is our savior! Praise! Love! We love you Jesus! Thank you for cleansing us of our sins!
I’ve realized this morning that I don’t want to date until I’m ready to be married. Perhaps that’s how it should be for all men and women; it would lead to less heart break. I was thinking this morning how i was ruined emotionally by my last relationship because I gave him things that should have only been in marriage. For example, I gave him my ideas, my love, my emotions, and various forms of a physical relationship. But God calls us to be with one spouse our entire lives because as Christians, we don’t believe that divorce is an option. So why try to date before the lord has told you “Get out there! Show ‘em what you got!”? God has a Devine plan for us all (Jeremiah 29:11), so why try and intervene? I know that this is easier said than done, but that’s where the power of prayer is really helpful. Pray to trust the Lord better! Believe me, this works.
Dating before God knows we are ready leads to a lot
of scarring relationships. That’s not to say that God doesn’t give us relationships so that we can learn from them! But Often times we find ourselves with our husbands or wives and still feel the effects of past relationships. For example, you could be in bed with your spouse, a very intimate time that God set only for husbands and wives, and be thinking about your past partners. Of course that is the devil reminding you of your past, but it was also your choice to have them. If you have trouble with relationships in this sort of way, ask God to help you follow him more faithfully. Remember, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!”
So let’s say that God has told you that it’s okay to date. (Remember that God will use your bad dating experiences as lessons! This is important!) Well, now it’s time to look for a relationship that pleases God, or a godly relationship. What’s in a godly relationship?
A godly relationship often consists of two people loving God more than they do each other. It sounds a lot like marriage, doesn’t it? But the difference between the two are some serious boundaries. In a relationship I advise not to share deep ideas. Now, I can’t tell you what that means because that should be up to you. But for me that means sharing ideas about life, or deep personal things about yourself. If you think about it, those are things that only a husband should know. Another thing is the boundary of a physical relationship. Those are completely up to you and your partner! Some people wait till engagement to have their first kiss to save themselves the temptation. Others only kiss and hold hands in public to avoid temptation. Some go as far as doing everything but sex, but that is probably the least godly of the two. Remember that you aren’t just fooling around win your boyfriend, but there is the possibility that you are fooling around with somebody else’s husband! Guys, that goes for you and your girlfriend too! That could be somebody else’s wife! Another thing that makes a godly relationship is the amount of Jesus you let into it. Is God driving your relationship? Is your relationship pleasing to God? Does it honor him in every way? Those are some good things to mentally check while you are in a relationship!
Ask the lord if you are ready to date. God know Zhou better than you know yourself. He knows! He will give you the right person at the right time.
For the longest time I have felt convicted of not posting enough about how we can learn from the Lord, and things to do in order to improve our relationship with him. Instead I check my dashboard every day and scroll through random images that leave little hope in my heart, or a longing in my soul for the Lord. I simply look to look. Maybe it was beacsue I feel like I shouldn’t remind people of their own sins and ways they can be walking with God when I can’t get my relationship with straight to begin with. But it seems even when I try to blend in with the world again, I am called back to be humbled at the cross. No matter what I do I can’t ignore the spirit within me, screaming and kicking at my soul to come back. It frustrates me because I know that the Lord has marvelous plans, plans that will prosper me, make my joyful. But I get so caught up in the world, in my appearance, in sin that I forget who God really is in my life. It’s a big mess, really. Suturday Night I had watched Passion of the Christ for the second time. It always astonishes me how humbled I am. There is no image like that of our Savior Jesus Christ being beaten, spit on, whipped, and then crucified, that can stay in your mind. I think of that every time I am faced with tempation. It breaks my heart. It opens my eyes to how much I need Jesus. Gosh, I am almost without words. God is the only thing that keeps my heart alive. If I have one prayer request for this week it’s that to pray for my relationship with him. I know in the end, my decisions are the ones that are going to either damage or improve it, but please pray for my faith. I want nothing more than Jesus.